Picture Perfect

Do you ever wish that you could go back in time? That you could somehow press rewind and go back and do things over...and most important do them differently? My little sister Rachel had her senior awards night tonight and as I sat in the audience watching the sea of people in Monsoon blue caps and gowns I couldn't help but wonder at the things I had missed. We sang our alma-mater and the tears over a school and life that I had resented for so long finally came. I was not a big fan of high school while I was there and I always used to blame it on the people that were there because well, they were/are the main reason I never liked it there. To me they were dumb and immature and I had my church friends so I didn't need them. But tonight I have realized that I was wrong. It wasn't everyone else that made High School so disagreeable...it was me. Tonight I realized that if I had tried a little harder to make more friends, to be involved, to have school spirit, then maybe, just maybe I would've been the one crying as a closed that HUGE chapter of my life.

Tonight I realized that there are no do overs. You can't rewind and live your life again just because it didn't turn out the way you pictured. Though not for the first time ever tonight I realized again that life isn't like the movies and if I keep sitting around and waiting for life to be picture perfect I'm going to miss out on those moments that make life perfect.